I've thought a lot about the first day I will have a foster child. Because it struck me one day, that day will be the day I become a Mom. Forever and always.
I firmly believe that once you are a mom, you always are. You would never tell a woman whose child has died that they are no longer a mom. Because you are a mom for life.
And I'm committed to being 100% a mom to every child I am given for as long as they are with me.
My sweet friend Rachel once told me, "You are already a mom, you just don't have any children yet." That meant so much to me.
But I do wonder, if, in the moment of picking up my first foster child, I will be aware enough of that life changing moment. Because, you, child, whoever you are, are going to change who I am forever. Right now I am many things - daughter, sister, baker, missionary, Abigail, Abby, etc... but on that day, I will forever add 'Mother' to that list.
And oh, my heart breaks for whatever situation brings that child to me. But I hope I won't forget to be grateful for the chance I'm being given. And I will take every moment I can to pour love into that child.